Maybe my second, intentional cut I have given myself.

This was not from a blade or any sharp metal.

It was at a time,

             When my pain was enormous, so I needed a pain that would                              

             somehow overpower it. I thumped my hand over the table’s

             edge. And that’s what you get after it.

             Now I feel horrible.

             (Hypocrite) I don’t allow other to do this. It’s bad doing

             that I know it eased me for a but don’t know how. It’s just  

             difficult to explain that. 

             But its dangerous. I don’t know when its gonna fade, and its  

             useless and it changes nothing. I mean you should be in a 

             way to life “SCREW YOU”