if you’re reading this i hope something good happens to you today
if you’re reading this i hope something good happens to you today
3rd April 2014
I had not spoken for so long because my depression has kept me locked in my own recurring thoughts forever. And that is worse than hell. But whenever something much worse happen that my walks break down. That the effect is so turgid that it floods off.
How I Met Your Mother ended last days and i watched twice and i have been emotionally broken down. I almost saw myself in almost everyone of them.
Their pain, Ted’s loonliness, Robin’s wrecked childhood and Barney’s most of problems.
This time I wished to see it with someone just not alone! but no I watched it alone, dark and alone. I am so sad. I have been crying every night creaked beside my bed and my years had wobbled my eyes. This morning I just saw my face spot of tears. See its different from me, I was crying because I feel so alone right now. The only thing that made me laugh and belief in love just keeps going away.
Now I just wanna watch the episode with someone to just hold me because its such hard to do. I keep crying.
My 11th grade has started sand everything feels odd but still there is guy who is my so called friend but he is a dick because her keeps making fun of me and keeps disturbing me by his cruel jokes over me its not even funny. I am tired of it. I just really don’t wanna live.
I have these thoughts, that i want to just run away. just don’t come back I want to run away from all this its shit. I want to run off.
Read it please…as a how I met your mother fan. I just want to explain something.
I’ll go point by point.
Marshall and Lily.
They were so less in this episode, well that’s true. All of them were so less in this episode.
It was good seeing good things happen to them but I cried so much seeing lily trying to keep everyone together but it falling apart.
I can’t say more about them. They lived the finale as same they were in the past and in the future.
Okay you guys have been saying that this finale just broke down all his character. Well, after He broke up with Robin at the first time he reset back to normal. After Nora he again set back to normal, after Quinn he again set back to normal and then he started to get Robin because he thought that she was the perfect fit. Well she was, kind of. But you know what I know Barney inch by inch, element by element. I have loved this show, breathed it and followed it religiously!! I know about the character because about everyone of them reflect me.
I just knew Barney would never change with Robin, no matter how awesome they were (UP-TOP). Barney is a very dark character. You know the reason why he doesn’t talk about his teen and college life because I can bet he had a very dark life. And he had been left away by his dad. He had to grow up like that. And in season 6 I just knew, I was sure only if barney has a kid he will change. And that scene with ellie was amazing. The writers nailed it. And the best thing is the kid is a girl. So now his misogynistic behavior will change forever. And I am happy for him but I do wanna know about the number 31 and what goes on after that.
Robin was such a strong female character and with such problems in her childhood. I don’t know why people hate her even knowing how her childhood has been. And she has always been conflicted with love life and her career. And after divorce. Yeah lets talk about that you know that was a great marriage and its right. Just like barney said.
You know there are many lines in this episode which are said so lightly and are in so light mood but they carry so much weight. And if they had told it in more excruciating meaning it would have been painful and I definitely would have been dead, to not be able to handle this much.
I’ll be back about robin in a moment.
I am so sad that the mother died and you know what they gave us that story which we all were expecting. And I just don’t get what you all were expecting!! What else could happen. There were so strong hints that she was dead.
I am so sad and I have cried so much and I am crying too. I loved her.
And ted loved her too, his love for her didn’t decreased and he said again in those simple yet in a formal tone that he did loved her and till those moments she lived and would love her. But mother moved on over the death over her ex why can’t ted and that shifts me to
Okay, I am so much of a ted and I would tell this guy has gone through so much. So much of pain. Being left at the altar I mean guys!! Not finding love for so long while he was such a hopeless romantic. He deserved love for every single day. You know he deserved to move on. He deserved to live his life. That guy has taken so much and that pain let him live over the loss of the one. HIS ONE. AND still he was single for freakin’ SIX YEARS. And if his kids say that they are cool with it than who the hell are you. Those are some awesome kids (UP-TOP to Tracy and Ted for such awesome parenting, you bet you had these kids)
Ted just started to tell this story and he started to relive those moments because it was nothing like that now. All had changed so he got lost in it. And he kept thinking about the other love which he still had in his life and they were available to be together.
Robin was so alone, she had her career and now when she had got the one single thing you could just see how lonely she felt. What she wanted she got but knew she had paid a price and the price was those awesome friends.
They deserved to be back together because they need to be happy. Love is never dead and it can be ignited back. Ted loved mother 100 percent.
You know you keep saying Friends had such an awesome finale. Well it ended that things will change and they will try to be friends but guess what they didn’t lived up to the expectations. They can’t live you just know. And it ended there and everybody did wanted to know what happened forwards. But that was a risk but HIMYM doesn’t get afraid to take risk. Never. It dives into the dead hunting reality and doesn’t stop. HIMYM always did more than a sitcom it never played by rules. It always tried to do more and I loved it for that and I love them for this.
HIMYM is awesome and it’ll be the only thing this episode was needed it needed to be stretched out in this season then the season 9 would be perfect and a hell of ride because there was not so much time to cover up the things.
It needed more play time that’s all.
And at the end I would say.
I am such a big fan, this show was my first and gateway to foreign tv shows and it ended. And I had thought after the end of the episode that we all fans would come together and would celebrate the finally and would console each other because it took my life. But I am sad to see people are not even able to get the finale.
Mother came into their life as a hope and restored their friendship and when they again started to drift off she died as a martyr to save their friendship again. She was an angel :’) this thoughts come piercing to my brain and they make me cry so much. I just need somebody to console me over this. I need someone to hold me because, I am breaking down. It was a happy ending. A reality happy ending, never done by anyone.
JUST heard about this cool website called Synaptop where you can be with your friends..watch movies together, draw together, write together and listen to songs together !! I mean no site has impressed this much, except Tumblr.
And i am alone there …I need friends!! ;)
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